http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/ yufuu16 - LiveJournal.com Mon, 03 Dec 2007 17:52:36 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com yufuu16 11275815 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/68867645/11275815 http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/ 100 96 http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/735.html Mon, 03 Dec 2007 17:52:36 GMT http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/735.html i didnt go to school today and i didnt told my mom<br />and we wrote an essay today in biology... u_u<br />and i dunno what i should do now<br /><br />manchmal würde ich meine mutter gerne fragen warum sie soviel auf mich setzt<br />warum kann sie nicht auch einmal meinem bruder sagen das er es machen soll?<br />ich meine..ich bin die jüngste und muss mich doch wie die älteste benehmen<br />"tu dies tu das geh studieren mach dies und jenes ich will nur dein bestes"<br />aaah manchmal fragt man sich doch ob das wirklich das beste ist?<br />ich lebe in einer welt in der ich nichteinmal fiction von realität unterscheiden kann<br />und das scheint echt hart zu sein...<br /><br />ich überlege ernsthaft manchmal die schule abzubrechen<br />aber wäre sie dann nicht enttäuscht?<br />..ist es aber wiederum okay etwas zu tuen was man niemals vollen herzens macht?<br />morgen schreiben wir mathe<br />und ich habe mich keineswegs vorbereitet<br />mein kopf kann nichts mehr aufnehmen ...es ist hart<br /><br />und mom...hör auf dich so zu benehmen wie du es tust,das macht mich sauer , es enttäuscht mich, okay?<br />als mutter sollte man sich nicht so benehmen<br />sollte man als mutter nicht eine art respekt person sein?<br />eine person ,der man vertrauen kann?<br /><br /> <br />and now i can only think about one thing "my family is crazy"<br />im not motivated anymore<br />its like a sickness<br />i cant do anything no matter how much i want to do it<br />if something is not right and you dont do it REALLY fullyhearted shouldnt you stop it?<br /><br />if i could just tell you that all i do , is just for you<br />to make you proud , to make yo think that you are a loyal and good mom<br />but deep in my mind i dont know why i am doing all this ...FOR YOU http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/735.html worried public 0 http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/389.html Mon, 23 Oct 2006 18:47:33 GMT http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/389.html And even dont know what to write maybe self industruction? naaa... i think thats a little bit ...strange ah?<br /><br />Sitting up here in my room , its dark here , i dont want to have lights on haha the coputer light i enough isnt it?<br />sometimes i even dont recognize how BAD my english is so im verry sorry but im only a german girl wich is just bad at english okay haha ^^;<br />may i can improve my skills here , talking with you,or just with myself you know at the time i dont have much friends on LJ so its like talking or writing for myself <br />god damn it this is strange <br /><br />ok may i really should tell something about myself<br />when i was little i were always watching indian movies ,my grandma were always buying them , they are so old right now , but im still watching them haha , the movies even dont work that well , but so what?!<br />it keeps up memories of my life , everytime i watch a movie i wachted before i can remember the way i feeled there and so on , i wich i could buy all those movies someday new and maybe on DVD.<br /><br />i really dont care what others think about me , no really , i dont care about it .<br />the most thing about i care is just an animal , so naive right?<br />but thats the way i am<br /><br />i even dont want to talk more on , im talking to much dont you guys think so <br />(wait about wich guys i am talking about..memo to myself , you have no friends at LJ so dont say guys or talk to someone whos not there)<br /><br />thats for it<br /><br />see you (if someone reads this entry)<br />and lets be friends , add me , talk with me i wont eat you http://yufuu16.livejournal.com/389.html public 3